hypocrite.

I was told the other day that blocking people from facebook is "immaure and childish" now the person who said that has blocked ME on facebook! Wow, really? Who's immature and childish?? I think you are. I think it's time to grow up, doll. Aren't you 40 years old? Hmm.

Anyway- My poor baby is getting 3 teeth at once :( he's been going to sleep alright, but around 2am he'll wake up crying so hard! It breaks my heart! We have those teething tablets, and they work pretty well, for atleast a half hour or so, long enough to get him calmed down & back to sleep. I just feel so bad for him! Three sharp, pointy teeth poking through his swollen irritated soft gums. He's doing really well with it throughout the day, it's night time that bothers him :( hopefully they'll poke all the way through soon!

I love our family football Sundays, I just wish Lex and Brody were here with us too. It sucks, and it's hard to be so far away from them, I pray that God's will be done & they'll be back here with us. I know they want to be, and we want them so much. I hate the pain that this has put Jason through, it breaks my heart for him and for the kids. Caleb KNOWS when they're not here, it's so sad. When we got to spend a little time with them after the hearing last Friday, Caleb lovEd it. He started to cry when lexie put him down. Ugh, please just let this be over soon, and let them be HOME with us. That's all I've got today--time to get back to my studying!

Love<3

where is my mind..

About a year or so ago, I decided to go back to school. I had no idea how hard this was actually going to be. I am so up for it and I feel very focused...most of the time. Having an almost one year old little boy (my precious Caleb), working part time, and managing a home (keeping up with laundry, cleaning, etc.) is proving quite difficult! BUT, I know I can and WILL do it! I might be tired, and scatter-brained at times, but I know what I'm doing :) Honestly, I can't seem to get Lex and Brody off my mind. I'm so worried about them and this whole situation right now. I just cannot believe the lies that have been told..it makes me physically sick. I know one thing--children DO NOT LIE about the way the feel! They have no reason to! And to call your children LIARS?? That is just ridiculous. Karma, Karma, Karma. "You reap what you sow!" I'll just say that you can only get away with lie after lie after lie for a small amount of time, then it will come back to bite you in the butt! I'm not saying I'm perfect nor that I've never done anything wrong. I KNOW HOW TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY ACTIONS! I don't deny my wrong-doings! But, I am an adult, not an immature child-like girl. Although some seem to think 22 is an immature age, it IS NOT..in my case. Something has been bothering me really bad since the hearing last week. The opposing attorney brought up the fact -to the entire courtroom and judge, mind you- that my "father murdered my mother and committed suicide" what the hell did that have to do with anything?? THAT was extremely hurtful, and when it was happening I simply could not believe it. I obviously ran out crying. The fact that she "went there" makes me absolutely sick. What in the world did I do to deserve to have THAT brought up??? Not a thing! Anyway--moving on. Caleb is almost a year old, unbelievable! I feel like I was just pregnant with him yesterday! I remember wanting him to come out and meet us so very much, now I'm wishing he was still a newborn. Life and time is flying. This amazing little boy has made my life and world an amazing, wonderful, new, fantastic place! He makes every day worth living, and has given my life so much meaning and purpose. It's hard to put into words the way that he truly makes me feel. I have never felt so much love. When i look at him, it just exudes from me. He makes my heart smile. He is my life. Any time I'm feeling down, all I have to do is take one look at him and everything is alright. I know now what it truly means to love someone<3

I better get back to studying!! Goodnight :)